G-man just graduated from preschool. We were so excited. He was so excited. We are full of anticipation and hope as he begins this new chapter in his life. He will be testing for his yellow belt in Tae Kwan Do in a few weeks. It is wonderful to see him growing and learning.
A-bear is having issues. She has taken to spitting, pulling out all the wipes and diapers, pretty much refuses to potty train. She is sweet and loving, but infuriating as well. We are working hard to teach her to be a responsible child and a nice one as well. I'm beginning to wonder if she will be nice ever again.
Work is going fairly well for Speck and I. It always has it's ups and downs.
I just started a diet today.
All these things are part of the better and worse.
Granny is getting sicker every day. My uncle is now having problems with his heart and they can be very serious. Neither one of them can remember A-bear's name. She is "little girl" to them. It breaks my heart to hear it. I don't know what I am going to do with either one of them if the other dies first. They are getting very close to not being able to be in their home by themselves. I don't know who I am going to get them to leave. I don't want to be the bad guy, and put them away somewhere. I know what facilities can be like. I see enough of that in my job. I see our patients and I can see the future of the only family I have left. This is distressing.
Speck's brother had a kidney stone and was incidentally found to have a malignant mass. At first we thought it was pancreatic cancer-not good at all. The blessing is it isn't pancreatic. It is a rare form of cancer that usually isn't found until it is too late. Luckily, the kidney stone led to an early finding. Still, there are all the feelings of a family dealing with that diagnosis. Speck is taking this very hard. The nurse in me wants to know all the information first hand. I want to be there an hear what all the options are and help my brother-in-law to make the most informed decision and hopefully the best one for him. Instead I have to be supportive of my husband and his, now my family. This is distressing.
This is the in sickness and in health part.
When we got married we stood at the front of the church, in front of our friends and recited the words that our pastor asked us to for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health." You can think you know what life may bring, but you don't. Only God knows what he has in store for us.
Jeremiah says "For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans for good and not for evil, for a future and a hope". This has been my favorite verse for quite a while. I always think of this one and another one I have held dear for many years from Psalms "They that sow in tears shall reap in joy, and he who goeth forth bearing precious seed shall doubtless come again rejoicing, bring his sheaves with him."
Both of these verses tell me that God knows what I don't, and that what ever he sends my way, and I will profit from it in some way. What a promise! I just need to hang on and wait patiently for God to show me the miracles of each situation that will bring me the blessings God has in store for me!!
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